4 Months

Damn it.  Tomorrow will be 4 months since Mason passed.  I remember the first time I was away from him for four days.  That was terrible.  I wish I could have those days back.

So far, it hasn’t gotten any easier.  In fact, it has gotten harder.  I’ve gotten to the point were I just don’t give a shit.  About anything.

When I’m at home, I want to get away.  When I’m away, I want to get home.  I sit here at teh office being totally unproductive.  I’ve got a job to do and I can’t do it.  I don’t want to do it.

I feel like everybody wants me to be the same old guy I used to be.  It can never be the same again.

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