Can you think of any reason you would do it?
Can anything in this world be so bad that you would take your own life?
I believe the answer to that is yes.
For the first time, I can understand how people can get to such a low place that they can do the unthinkable.
I am fortunate in the fact that I have a very supportive family. I know that I can go to them with anything and they will support me or just listen to me.
I am also fortunate that I have my loving wife and daughter. It’s strange that a toddler can keep an entire family together. I have held it together (for the most part) because of her.
Mason absolutely adored her. I wish he could be here to see her now. He would be amazed at how much she has grown.
I know, without a doubt, that I am better off right now because of her. If it hadn’t been for the responsibility of taking care of her needs, I’d be completely lost. Maybe in the bottom of a bottle. Maybe sleeping on a cardboard mat under an overpass. Maybe dead.
Now, I don’t want everyone who reads this (both of you) to over react and try some kind of intervention. I’m not suicidal. This post was about understanding. I can understand how people would be driven to do things that are unimaginable to others.
I Love You Mason. I Miss You.